so i guess i'm
free....
from all the
hatred
bitterness
sufferings
deppressions
sleepless nights
the
other guy gave to me
the day you came
the time
you got me back.
my nightmares were
over
i gained my pride back
i broke free from the shell of hatred
there are
no angsts anymore
you brought back the light
shades of
purple turned
red
i can now
feel
not anymore
numb.....
or so i guessed........
at mali pala ako!
di pa ako malaya......
tonight, the
odd feeling is back
a replica of the
past
the same slap of
brokenness
oh damn!is it over?
sad trip na naman...
*** random thougths @
11:04 AM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
bakit ang hirap iwasan ng nakasanayan?
bakit ang hirap kalimutan ng nakamulatan?
bakit pinapangarap ang imposible?
bakit masarap ang bawal?
umaga na.tulog na ang karamihan.gising pa rin ako.
hindi ako mapakali.naiinis.ayaw akong tantanan ng kahapon.hindi nakikiayon ang ngayon.di ko mailarawan ang bukas.
masaya ako kahapon.di alintana ang problema.nasa alapaap.
ngayon ako'y naliligalig.mga katanungang di masagot.malungkot.
sanktwaryo'y tahimik.nakikiayon sa damdamin.ayoko ng musika.di tulad ng dati.
ano kaya bukas?alapaap ba ang tungo o purgatoryong walang buhay?
di maarok ng isipan ang nais ipakahulugan.ang ibinabadya ng panahon.
makulimlim ang langit.tulad ng aking puso.
tinatakpan ng ulap.ang humihiyaw na damdamin.
nawa sa aking paggising.
wala na ang kulimlim.
wala na ang BAKIT?
*** random thougths @
9:50 AM
Thursday, November 11, 2004
in my
room at last
in this
sanctuary
waiting for a call
from my
dear one
so this is how it
feels
to be into
someone's loving arms
can't explain the feeling
it's
damn odd
even if
unexplainable
it totally amazes me
the
beauty of love
the
joy from within
don't know where
the
vibrance comes
everyday's
blooming
moments ain't dull
i am ecstatic
feels as if
i took the e-drug
my eyes
sparkle
i feel light
so this is...
how it is like
i'm happy i took the
chance
to be
in love.........
*** random thougths @
7:49 AM
